A strange new world

It seems that my status of late is so crazy that I hesitate to update. (finding it humorous how the world of facebook has changed dialogue).......I have quit my job. I have quit teaching. I have let go of everything that bound me. Right now, I am in a state of limbo, wondering where life will lead. We have a vision and plan for a wellness center in Gresham, but we may also have an interested buyer for the property in which we would host this dream business venture of ours. So, what is to be? Only time will tell. But the test that it places on me is the real story.

I feel more freedom and more peace than I have felt in a very, very long time. My road has been rough for the last decade, and yet, it has been enormously fruitful. But, just like many women know, bearing fruit can be exhausting. I have made choices that were very unpopular and tough in the last month, but ones that ultimately serve, dare I say it; ME. As I struggle forward in this race to live as I am called, I find lessons at every turn and struggle to hear the still-small voice in my heart that is God. He is leading and moulding, certainly. But, certainly, I can question, right? Why all this struggle? Why all this challenge? I am so, so, so ready for peace, God. I am so ready for calm.

In just a matter of days, I will have complete direction, and I envision myself moving forward with a peaceful assuredness that feels like home. It is this that I strive. It is this that I long for. It is God moving within me. And together, we will move with strength and certainty that will be unstoppable!