And there are days........

Here goes, the raw, open truth that seems to, at times, take people for surprise.......

There are days that I am so overwhelmed with life and I just want to run away and hide. Days when my life seems to be too much. The pressures of being a divorced, home-schooling mom with multiple jobs makes me say, 'What is wrong with you? Why can't you just be like every one else would?' And as I drive to the studio, wanting to find a tree to hide under and cry, I am compelled to serve. To live up to my responsibilities to my students. As I walk in to the studio, putting on a happy face, their sincere nature penetrates me. And I walk in, sitting on my mat sure that I have nothing to give of value, that I am so sapped of all energy. It's not quite clear at what point the smiles become natural or at what point I feel honored to serve. As I see their eagerness to, as my friend Josef says, 'Make Yoga', my heart softens and remembers that it isn't about me. My spirit is consoled in another's plight, forgetting my own for survival. And some how, some way, I am made new.

So, it is to my students that I say Thank you. Sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, thank you. Because it is when we give that we are the most free. I am so deeply honored by your presence.