Facing our Fears

Tonight, in class, I led the students in half hand stand. The primary lesson that always arrises in handstands is facing your fears and it is such a fundamental thing, but brought me back to my present situations. I have applied for a very lofty position in a highly desired role. This position and role is something that I've always wanted to do, and now the time is right. I find it interesting that today, as I called on this situation, it took much self talk and affirmation before I could present the right posture that is necessary. Honestly, this isn't something that I typically struggle with, but as anything needs practice to be strong, apparently so does one's posture or confidence in how they present themselves.

As I had the class attempting half hand stand, I realized that I have been missing that element of my practice. The scary, needing to surrender and trust parts of a yoga practice that can strengthen more than just your muscles. Due to the effects of my pregnancy, my practice all but died the last trimester and certainly post partum. Now, is the time for me to build back that element that will grow me into my authentic self. The quiet, calm, pillar that I really am. My inner yogi, as it were. So, on to half hand stands!